HOW TO PUT IT

Yes, im not an angel. So aku ada mengumpat org. Cuma skrg ni aku malas nak mengumpat. Tapi nak dijadikan cerita, seseorg yang mengumpat bersama aku lama dulu apparently pegi kasi bocor dekat org yang di umpati dan sampai ke pengetahuan aku. Aku agak kecewa tambahan lagi beliau kata "apa yang kita cerita kat sini habis kat sini". That's basically an oath kepada persatuan mesyuarat tingkap.

Masa memula aku tahu, aku agak terkejut dan marah. Tapi i will be seeing her anyway in any events, TT..nak masam muka nak marah tak der guna bila mengumpat itu sendiri salah. So i still say hi to her, salam peluk cium tiap kali jumpa like nothing is going on. Aku maafkan dia dan aku rela melupakannya.

Susah bagi aku utk membenci org sebab lepas tu aku akan rasa sangat down. Biar lah, dia pun manusia biasa yang berbuat kesilapan. Takpe, whatever she said masa mengumpat tu, i will just keep it to myself. Tapi basically, aku sendiri dah lupa apa yg kami umpatkan. So just forget about it.

WHEN I START TO FEEL BORED

When i started to feel bored, i will start to do some thinking on how to make myself useful dan content and most important thing is to kill time. Like now, i am bored and i start to blog about my boringness on this cloudy monday. So blogging is one way to kill time. Oh i become a murderer!

Anyway, last week i found something while i was facebooking. It was a co-incident means unplanned. Kehkehkeh! Fate???? While browsing through a page in facebook, my eyes caught one of previous-life-chapter that made my life like well, not close to hell at all. Hell is worse. Well anyway, the name is dekat-dekat dah. And the picture, wohuuu..still the same. Its actually an event page, so he said he will come. But he did not or at least he was not there until i went back home. Phew! I can't stand to see him, its like u owe me kind of feeling. The rage. And if he came to that event, i hope the previous gang was there to see him..to scare him..hahahahahaha...!

Im writing this because i almost put off the fire when i saw this fella again in facebook. Nasib baik facebook bukan mcm blog. I hate him to death! Eh ye ke aku mcm tu..ekekeke..!

MY PEOPLE

Seperti watak Meredith dalam Grey's Anatomy, aku perlukan sokongan 'my people'. Bila kami meluahkan perasaan, kami bukan mahu dengar tentang ayat-ayat waras tapi ayat-ayat yg menyokong tindakan kami walaupun ianya tindakan yg bodoh.

Sebab tu dalam Grey's Anatomy, Christana (being Meredith's people) dont say much when Meredith start to do something inapropriate. Christina trust Meredith to do something wise at the end of the day. Thats what im searching. I might make some stupid act and unwise decision, but when all people dont understand what im saying, i just hope my people to understand me and stand up for me.

SIAPA PINTAR

Ni nak tanya..sape pintar sila jawab soalan ini dan bantu aku menyelesaikannya. Kalau korg perasan atau tak perasan meh aku bitau, aku kan asyik ler tukar template kan kan..nak tahu ngape..recent comment aku tak kuar. Masa memula letak cantik la dia kuar comments tu..pastu tak kuar. So aku pun tukar template lain, cantik je memula kuar. Pastu eh tak kuar jugak. Kali ni kalau tak kuar jugak aku pasrah..akakakaka..

So kepada si pintar, sila beritahu saya, kenapa recent comment saya ni degil nak keluar???

HOHOI APSAL KAMU

Ni nak complain sikit. Penat dah mikio ni. Ni pehal aku punya Blooming tu tak updated. Setahu aku Wentworth Miller dah update. Apa ke hei nya tak update blog list tu. Dah la lif rosak. Naik tingkat 5 nak pengsan rasanya..kohkoh.

Penat nih. Minum air jap.

RAIN

Its true. I love rain. Im happy when its raining.
I love driving alone in the rain. No pressure on the road. Smooth riding. Happy.
I love staring at the dropping water from the sky. Trying to figure out the science behind it.
I love listening to their voices on my rooftop. Feel their breeze sweep my face.

Rain comes with blessing. And it its difficult to be described.

KEPADA AIDAH YANG KU SAYANGI

Kepada Puan Aidah Yang Ku Sayangi,

Tujuan saya menulis di sini ialah kerana saya ingin menyampaikan beberapa perkara.

Yang pertama: Terima kasih kerana saya menginspirasikan anda untuk menjadi pemblogger tegar. Saya juga suka masuk ke blog saudari memandangkan saudari seperti Joyah(yer saudari ialah Joyah). Anda harus ingat, setiap kali saya tgk pelakon nama Yatt tu mesti saya ingat saudari.

Kedua: Saya kepingin sekali memberi komen terhadap entry saudari yg bertajuk Inspirasi itu akan tetapi yg menjadi masalah kepada saya ialah kotak POST COMMENT itu nampak 1/8 sahaja dari keseluruhan kotaknya. Sedih saya!!!!!!! Mungkin resolusi komputer saya tidak sama dengan komputer saudari, jadinya mungkin sebab itu saya tidak nampak. Jadi bagaimana saya nak bagitahu saudari yang saya bangga menjadi impak dalam kehidupan saudari.

Itu sajalah saudari. Sedih ni. Cantik template baru. So girlie. Tak mengapa saudari, saya akan memberi komen kepada entry saudari (sekiranya ada) di dalam blog saya. Sob sob!

Sekian,
Insan Yang Komputer Beresolusi Kecik.
-Isis-

MAKES ME WONDER

Aku terfikir kadang-kadang, apa tujuan sesuatu cerita di beritahu. Cthnya, Aidah(bukan nama sebenar) kata dia tak suka la Siti Nurhaliza(bukan nama sebenar) tu. Bila di tanya kenapa, jawapannya itu antara dia dengan Siti je, ko tak perlu tahu. Ramai org tak suka dia. Pastu bila di tanya lagi, apa masalah ko dengan Siti? Jawapannya tetap sama, tak perlu tahu.

Emm..soalnya di sini, kalau aku tak nak diberitahu, kenapa perlu aku tahu yg ko tak suka dia. Ianya menyeksa diri aku. Seolah, nak aku mati tapi tak nak aku mati dengan cepat..ekekekeke..(perumpamaan sahaja). Tak adil pulak aku rasa. Pada aku, kalau tak nak aku tahu, better aku tatau langsung.

Tapi apa2 pun, terpulang pada Aidah kenapa dia tak suka Siti Nurhaliza. Aidah ada alasan sendiri utk tidak memalukan Siti Nurhaliza. Dan aku, buat bodoh je la. Dan jangan masuk campur cuma sakit hati sikit la..sebab alang2 nak bagi tahu, bagitahu la semua..ekekekeke

ARE WE NOT LUCKY

We said our life is sucks

We said, why this happened to us..

We said, why so many obstacles we face

We asked so many questions..

We thought we are unfortunate..

 

Yet, we dont realise we are much fortunate than some other peoples

Who live their lives impaired..

Who have to stay with deadly virus and knowing they going to restrain themselves..

Who have nothing to eat in a day or two..

Who lost their parents and those old folks who left staying alone..

We still lucky to have legs to walk to our office

Hands to feed ourselves

Brain and education to grab opportunity

Paycheque to keep us spending..

What are we whining about?

 

KENANGAN LALU KUALA LUMPUR

Kenangan lalu ku biarkan pergi
Kenangan lalu ku tidak sebut lagi
Kenangan lalu tidak ku kenang
Kenangan lalu jadikan pengajaran

Secara amnya begitulah aku layan cerita musim lalu. Aku tak suka bercakap mengenai hal yg lepas. My mantra "what pass is pass". I always learn to let go. Im not living the same anymore, then why i must hold on it like the things will be the same. All the sweet memories, kindness given I never forget that. I never regret of what had happened, must be reasons behind it.

I dont have any regret nor to revenge my ex for what he did to me, the lie. I never want to talk about it anymore. But how is that those who still can't let go of the pass? Is it too hurt for them to let go. Im not in the position to give advices, but I think..don't talk about it can help you let go things. Don't live in previous years, we live in for now and for future.

p/s Though I miss her, it won't do any thing. Tepung, I miss her. Kekekekekek..

Happy New Year 2009

Im not the type who love celebrating anything. I just go with the flow. 

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I did horrible thing last night which was unacceptable. I wish I could turn back time. I promise to myself not to hurt him again. Never want to hurt him again. Though i forgiven apa yang jadi would never hilang dlm kepala aku. Why am i so so so stupid and keras hati? Ego?? Damn myself..dramatiknya!

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Uwaaaaaaa...aku selsema dan sakit tekak. Jangkit dari sape nii....uhuk..hidung umpama empangan pecah airnya.

AKU TERPANA DAN TERSENYUM SAYANG

Nama Pengirim: Akmaliyana Atma Binti Abd Aziz

Lokasi Pengirim: Ube, Jepun

Nama Penerima: Ibu Abah (Atmawati Ahmad, Abd Aziz Muda), adik beradik (Azrinoor, Afifi Iqbal, Aura Izzati, Asmani Mad Nor), saudara mara, rakan-rakan, guru-guru, dan seluruh rakyat Malaysia.

Lokasi Penerima: Ampang, Kelantan, Terengganu, dan seluruh dunia.

Ucapan: Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri diucapkan kepada ibu abah, dan seluruh ahli keluarga. Tidak lupa juga kepada guru-guru di SMK Taman Kosas, Pusat Tusyen Malik Kamaruddin, dan Ambang Asuhan Jepun. Tidak lupa kepada sahabat-sahabat di Malaysia dan serata dunia. Salah silap saya harap dimaafi.

Pengenalan Gambar: Taman Tasik Tokiwa, Ube Kota Keriangan, Jepun.

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Aku terpana..
Dan aku senyum..
Aku bahagia sekali...
Aku rindu sangat-sangat dengan Esah..
Bila kau nak pulang...
Kita akan ke Malis dan lepak di sana.
Kau buat lawak dan aku gelak...
Mungkin kita akan makan kerang lagi dan aku kopekkan utk kau..


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Thanks Esah for early b'day wish. Aku nak kau tahu yg kau sentiasa dlm hati aku. Masa aku jalan-jalan kat Danau Kota, tetiba aku teringat kau. Lalu aku sms kau. Deting la pulak..ekekeke..